The best moments of my life.

Bring me a horse and I'm gonna ride it like when I was 13 and my weekends riding horses were filled in with the best moments of my life.

Memory 11.

I only can play “Rape Me” on guitar, I am bad at that. He played “Desire” by U2. Quite badly, too. I thought I finally met my match.

Memory 10.

How he lifted me on his legs, and I was flying.

We were messing around on the bed and at some point I was sitting on his knee. Can I ride it? “No, but I can lift you up high on my feet”, he said. And he did, holding my hands in his hands, with his legs raised at a 90-degrees angle, and my stomach resting on the soles of his risen feet. It was scary and hilarious at the same time. Scilarious.

That’s what I am looking for. The fun. The trust. The unique moments to remember.

Memory 9.

Before we started to arm wrestle, I said, give me some leverage, because I am a girl. Being left-handed, he was wrestling with his right arm and I was winning, until I said, c’mon, be serious, and nearly fell off the chair the next second when my arm was flatted against the kitchen table. We ate grapefruit after.

Memory 8.

Yesterday, around 9 am, when we were lying in bed doing nothing, breathing in the fresh air from the wide open window, suddenly, he pulled me across his chest and turned my head towards the window, so the big bright sun blinded me for a moment and all I could see was the white on the deep blue but I could not close my eyes, I just stared and stared, until it became almost unbearable. The hotness of the spring sun got us all horny.

Cruel world.

Words of wisdom according to JT: "A hot married guy is better than no-one". Cruel world.